i dont need you, i have other people i can talk to
I don’t even know how to word this or if anyone’s going to read this but it’s going onto my blog anyway. Because I am proud of myself and where I am and what I have achieved in this last year.
For the past five years I have battled with not feeling like I am pretty enough or good enough, but most of all skinny enough. I quite literally wanted to disappear and I hated myself. I wanted to die. I would starve myself for days and days and I would literally sit in my room crying on my own.
But this past year has changed me and the way I see myself and although I still struggle with myself I can definitely say I am much closer to happy than I ever have been. Yeah, food is still on my mind but I think I can finally say the voices telling me I’m too fat have gone away and I’m many many more steps closer to loving myself. I’m two stone heavier than the picture on the left and I’m three stone heavier than my lowest weight. And I would never go back. Not for anything.
I don’t even care if this blocks up your news feed because today I feel like I have achieved so much. And I did it all by myself.
[by: Julie Martinez]
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